sweater season

Sweater season is upon us and I have purchased some GREAT ones recently!  With being pregnant and not sure of my size this season, I am keeping things loose and comfortable.  Check out some of my recent favorites!

 

JCrew Sweater HERE:

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JCrew Roll Neck Sweater HERE.  LOVE this look.

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Free People Sweater HERE.

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Splendid Cardigan HERE.

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Line & Dot HERE

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English Factory Sweater HERE.

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WAYF Sweater HERE.

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English Factory Sweater HERE

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Happy shopping!

xo

Hillary

random thought

Hi!

I hope you all had a great weekend – ours was spent celebrating two very special friends at their wedding in Essex, CT.  It was such a nice weekend away for us and we got to explore some really cute east coast towns – it was the best!

This post is kind of random but the further out that we get from Bea’s liver transplant, the less I think about it.  Yes, I still think about when she was diagnosed, how much time we spent in the hospital, watching her get sicker, etc but it doesn’t consume my mind like it used to.  Thankfully, she has remained fairly healthy over the last 3ish years which has allowed us to take a deep breathe and enjoy our time as a family of 4.

I am still involved in Cincinnati Children’s in a lot of different ways and had a meeting last night about patient care at CCHMC.  Before the main speaker a couple of parents got up and talked about their time in patient with their children.  Both had different circumstances and different outcomes, but I couldn’t help but be taken back to that moment of living and breathing all things liver and CCHMC.  Hearing them talk about their kids and their stories and the toll it had (and still has) on their lives is astounding and, unfortunately, relatable.

Something the woman said that really struck me and almost hit me to the point of crying with no return was when she talked about how you experience the life altering moment of becoming a parent.  That, alone, is a total game changer for most.  And then you have a child that is diagnosed with a life threatening illness.  You are tossed into a situation you would do anything not to be in and one of the scariest things is – you know nothing about the illness.  You are in finance, or social media, or in education.  You don’t know anything about the medical industry but you are tossed into it in the blink of an eye.

Something that she put into words that was hard for me to explain is that while you know nothing about this industry or this specific, rare disease and then are told in that moment you are your child’s voice, you are their advocate, and you are their fighting chance.  How can you be those things when you don’t even know what you are talking about?

There is an insane amount of pressure in being a parent but an even unmeasurable amount when being a parent to a special needs child.

So, for those that are going through it now – I see you and I understand. You may not always know if you are making the right decisions but always speak up if you feel something isn’t right.  Rely on your trusted medical team but ALWAYS feel like you can challenge, question, or  advocate for your child.  At the end of the day, you know them best.

And for those who are reading this without a special needs child – hopefully this post helps you understand a little better those who do 🙂

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#BEAstrong

Hillary

 

 

 

happy birthday, poppy

This has been a big week for our little girl – first day of school and her second birthday. I can hardly believe we have a 2 year old!

Poppy Girl,

Happiest of birthdays to the light of our life.

You have meant more to me than you’ll know even before you were born.  I was 6 months pregnant with you when I found out about Dad.  When my whole world was falling apart, you were a constant reminder that joy can exist even in the darkest of times.  I never felt completely alone because you were always with me.  There is no one on this planet that will know everything I went through those few months of grief besides you and I am so lucky you were there to help me through it all.

You were born a healthy, and happy baby  You stabilized and normalized our family.  We learned what it was like to deal with “normal” baby things and got to experience parenthood the way all parents should – without trip after trip to the hospital.

You lifted the spirits in our home and continue to.  “Where’s my Beazy?”‘ is the first thing you say when you wake up in the morning and asking to give her a “squeezy hug” is the last thing you want to do before bed.  You love her and she loves you back….a lot.  You two are so lucky to have each other.

You are so chatty, funny, have a little attitude, and are very loving.  You are our Poppy girl and we are so blessed to have you as ours.